I Tend to Daydream...

And my daydreams come often, and vividly. Lately, all I can think about is Aimee. Of course for a while that's all I could think about. It literally took her getting married before I finally stopped thinking about her. Along with dreaming of the future, I have reflected on the past a lot lately. I was telling my friend about how I basically broke up with more than one girl for Aimee. And I realize that may put me in a position to where I seem like a flakey boyfriend. That I get bored and move on quickly. But that is far from how I see it. To me, It shows how much I truly love her. It may seem rather counter intuitive, I'll give you that! But let me expound some, and perhaps it will become clearer.

I have had a fair share of long lasting relationships. One of which lasted 2 years. I didn't end this relationship. I was fully committed. I am however very glad things have turned out how they have, otherwise, I dont know where Aimee and I would be right now. But, I never once looked at another girl and thought of dating them. My commitment was to the girl I was dating and her alone. Every other relationship I have been in, I have never ended to be with another. All except the two where Aimee was involved. Whenever Aimee has come up in my life, I realize that there is a girl out there that I would give anything to be with. The first time I had broken up with a girl for Aimee, there was a lot going on in my life and a lot of big decision making. But Aimee just has something about her that inspires me. She moves me. And I realize that I doubt I will ever find it anywhere else. So I do whatever I can to be with her. Every. Time. She has something about her I could never get enough of. And I think all these years I have known that she was the one for me. The love I have for this girl I feel I can never place in words. She inspires me, she comforts me, she brings me the greatest joy, and I cant get enough of her.

I might also add that each time I dropped everything for Aimee, I didn't know how things would turn out with Aimee. The first time I wasn't even sure if she liked me. But I knew each time that the way I feel for her is how I needed to truly love. And I saw how thats not what I had. I pursued Aimee each time, but I had no idea how it would turn out. I don't know if thats faith or just plain crazy! Either way, I know the love I have for Aimee is the type of love every husband should have for their wife. And even after 10 years of a lot of crazy things happening and life and marriages and divorces, I still feel the same for her. Even when she didn't feel the same for me. I know that if it hasn't changed by now, it never will. She is all I have ever prayed for.

Now I am unsure if this makes any sense, but I just want to clarify any thoughts anyone has about why I broke up with other girls for Aimee. Its because she has that spark. That special something people spend their entire lives looking for in another. I just pray that she will always feel the same for me.

I daydream all too often, and I just can't get Aimee and my wedding out of my head. I seriously can't wait. Aimee doesn't like to think about it too much, but I think I make up for it! Right now is tough, but I do realize our dreams will come true. And she will be loved every day as she has deserved to be loved all along. She is my Eve, my penguin, my friend and my love. I love her so.