I slowly stepped into the darkness. Fear of rejection and doubts of my decision encompassed me. Yet, I was comforted. My path was set. My direction sure. And I carefully planned every detail of our night together. Now that I was single, the encounter could be more. This is the girl I had fallen for so quickly. My stomach was in knots, I lost my appetite, I couldn’t sleep, and I couldn’t have been more excited! I wasn’t sure how the evening would carry out. After all, I never asked Aimee on an official date, I had only planned for us to just “catch up”. I nervously checked my watch, carefully waiting for the moment I can see her beautiful face. I was ready about an hour early… and I checked my breath at least every 5 minutes. I drove to her house to pick her up, daydreaming of the imminent evening. I pulled up, got out, and my heart raced as I knocked in the door. The door opened and there she stood, in a white shirt, jeans, Converse shoes, and a bow in her hair. My heart then proceeded to stop. I am alive today, so I assume it began to beat again, I’m not sure how long it was stopped, however. She smiled, gave me a hug, and off we went. I had asked her if she liked sushi, and she told me she did. I decided to take her to Ra on Mill Ave. We talked the entire way to the restaurant. Not one moment do I remember the conversation turning awkward. Nor do I remember running out of things to talk about. I was at home. Never had I ever felt more comfortable with another person. Just pure bliss at every moment.
We pulled up to the restaurant, parked the car, and got out as normal procedure. I specifically remember I had a gum wrapper in my hand. I went to toss it in the garbage and missed. “Are you going to pick that up!?” she asked intently. I felt like such a litter bug at that moment. “I believe in making the world cleaner for our children,” she said. I remember from that moment on, I was very conscious of making sure I threw things away. It was a small thing to her, but it made a huge impact on me. To this day I still make sure whatever I throw in the garbage makes it in! We sat down and had a wonderful dinner. We talked, laughed, and just enjoyed each other’s company. I couldn’t dream of it going better. We walked down Mill ave. after dinner and made our way to Tempe Town Lake. We sat on the edge of the lake, still talking. I wanted so badly to hold her. I finally mustered up the courage and put my arm around her. She began to smile from ear to ear. “Is this ok?” I asked hoping I wasn’t making her uncomfortable. “Yeah,” She said smiling. It was the first time I had really made physical contact with her besides dancing that night so long before. I couldn’t believe the girl I had longed for was reciprocating my feelings. The night carried on, we held hands while we walked. And the evening went better than I could ever have imagined. I took her home, and walked her to the door. I went in for a kiss but I was rejected! (It was the first and only time that has happened to me, so it was awkward to say the least.) She kindly turned her head away as I leaned in. “you just broke up with your girlfriend!” she exclaimed. It was true; I just had the day before… So yes it was quick. But I knew how I felt about her; despite the fact she wasn’t sure about me. (Or so I believe!) The night ended, I drove home, and daydreamed the entire way home.
Aimee and I kept in touch, and the chronology of what happened when escapes me, but I will try my best to remember all the details. We slowly started dating. I remember when our relationship was young I went to her house in my dads truck to watch a movie. As I pulled up in a big truck, I saw a car was outside and Aimee was talking to someone. He drove away and Aimee proceeded to tell me it was a friend of hers that was obsessed with her. I felt so lucky. I was a MAN! I was there with the most beautiful girl I had ever met. I won. (In a sense…) we watched King Kong, and she fell asleep. I didn’t watch much of the movie, I was too busy looking at her; I couldn’t get my eyes off her! (I realize this may sound creepy, but oh well…. It was the truth.) She woke up at the end, and apologized. I really didn’t care; I loved every minute of it. We had our first kiss in Las Sendas. I love cityscapes, so we went up there to look over the city (cheesy I know…). It was beautiful. It wasn’t nearly as beautiful as her. I wanted to kiss her so bad, but I was afraid of getting rejected again. I nervously asked, “ I know this guy who likes this girl, and he really wants to kiss her… what should he do?” I tried being subtly obvious. I hoped she would give me a simple yes or no answer. But no, this is Aimee we are talking about, so she ended up playing the game right back. “I don’t know… what if this girl doesn’t like the guy back?” she connivingly said back. We went back and forth for a while, and we both knew what was going on, but we just played the game. I finally got tired of it and moved in! It was the best kiss I ever had. It was so full of love, so incredible. I will never forget that night in Las Sendas. The last date we ever had we went and got Ben and Jerry’s ice cream and sat behind Shepherd Jr. High. We ate our ice cream and talked for some time. It was drizzly outside and a little cold. We kissed some more that night, and I loved every minute. I never wanted to loose her. I tried so hard to never let her go. She was the only person I ever felt this way about. I knew that night I wanted to marry her. It was a bit crazy, but I knew how I felt. It was unique and special! I never wanted to loose her.
To be continued….
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