Blessings

Sometimes the reality of what you are doing slaps you across the face. Sometimes, it is a good slap! Sometimes, not so much. (I said sometimes a ton just then) Sometimes, you realize you are doing something stupid, and I was doing just that. I want to marry Aimee more than anything I know of. Yet, sometimes you can get so caught up in the future/ what you desire you lose sight of what's really important. I lost the ability to "live in the moment" and as consequence, I didn't appreciate Aimee. And I didn't honor her wants & desires. Yesterday I realized this. I was so caught up in the future, I pushed what Aimee wanted aside for myself. I also just didn't appreciate her like I should. I feel at peace with the future now. Aimee and I will get married, and I look forward to that day every moment. However, I am so happy with every moment we have together now. I appreciate all that she does so much! she really is such an incredible person. I don't know what I ever did to deserve her.

Aimee moves home in TWO WEEKS! I am excited to say the least. We will never have to say goodbye for more than a few days, and not only that, but she will be right here! I love her more than anything!

I'm not really sure why I felt so inclined to post this... future record I guess! I mostly just want the universe to know that I appreciate Aimee being in my life at THIS moment. right here in the present. The past is just that, and the future is to be created. And Aimee loves me now, and that means more to me than anything.... ANYTHING in this world. I love her more than she will ever understand. She is my penguin, my friend, my Eve, my Aimee. I love her so.